exams are knocking on our doors. i truly hope my dear friends are coping well in their preparation for final exams. well, i seriously at a loss to study for two modules(Pee EFF and wAL!) haiz, i shall just try my best and grasp all the stuff my lecturers went through. i wanted to do a mindmap for wal! but then in the process of simplying all the concepts in wal!, i seemingly hear my lecturer's voice in my head saying "L/a/w has never meant to be simple. it ought to be complicated."  FRIGGIN! and yes i agreed that if i simplified all the concepts, my answers will also follow suit(which shouldn't be the case) oh wells, so i am drilling damn hard for wal.
feeling weird at times too, like dunno what is the format of it! apparently the lecturer for my PEE/EFF mod changes every year! weird. what answer is expected from a varsity student? (guess we will all be enlightened when we get our result slip in december LOL!)

I was doing a online research for cases for my WAL...and then i chanced upon an article written by my lecturer. aiyoyo..this chap is seriously a gourmet! if i am gg to U*C/berkeley, then this article of his might have influenced my decision. coz apparently the World's top resturant/cafe is located at san franciso! yum yum! GarbageIn GarbageOUT: thus one needs good food in order to have good output! anyone agrees with this? hehe

Let me give thanks again for watever happened the past week or so. Thanks God for being in my life and make my paths straight(guiding the decisions in my life or daily life)! haha i have a sentiment that i will be spending a meaningful nineteenth birthday and a time where God sharpens my sword. Thanks God for my health! these days been pouring heavily and normally i will be damn friggin ill. last friday i really tot i gonna be sick with fever again coz my whole body temp is quite high. Hallejulah! I am still praying hard for something. something that i have been praying for many years. once in a blue moon, people will ask me when will i affirm? lalala
there are still two knots. perhaps i shld share with a sister after the exams.

Dear Mr December(erm i am talking abt the month! not by coincidence of someone whose name is tt) , pls come faster!!!
last year this time, i am struggling with the stupid As! but something different between this yr and last year is my closer walk with Him. Hallejulah!
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[edited 19/10/2009]

discover smthg new today. and at that instant, my heart was griped with warmth and sadness. i din know i din know. He is actually trying to work in my life;putting those people around me during those 4 years! but yet, i did not appreciate and yet judged(a few of them). FRIGGIN ME! haha but still glad to know i was sitting with a girl(whom from my parents' motherchurch) for almost a year and i re-read the confidential email dated yr2004 to someone. zomg zomg...i shall CHANGE to not live a gratuitous life...
may the 4 yrs in varsity be blessed by HIM! :D

"Jesus paid it all; all to him i owe; sin had left a crimson stain; He washed it white as snow!"

What a Nice apt song to soothe the emotional turmoil experience i had this morning in sch. well, this "dirty" feeling has been lingering within me for a long time...been thr the Os and As...but i am soooo thankful that i did not leave the problem alone but seek help! :) guess the lecture i was attending made the whole battle worse since what the lecturer taught is not tested in the final exam. I plan to uproot the unnecessary feeling and set free from the gripes of the sin. well, actually this is perhaps the one and only thing that is preventing me from growing in faith. full stop. on the bus journey back home, i reflected that i really miss out so many chances that God gives me and blessed the place God has place me in! regreting a whole lot becoz if i seek help earlier then i would not be such a blankless difter/solitary saint. argh! ignorant young me whom once just wouldn't want to open her mouth to sing praises. lazy me who just wouldn't want to make the extra effort to attend YFellowship. not setting priorities right since my cca clashes with Yfellowship. enuf said. Hallejulah! Praise to the almighty God! What i am experiencing so far is part of God's perfect plan for me...even my future is also part of his perfect plan! Thus, I thank Him for all the wonderful pleasant friends placed beside me!yes and YOU(whoever is reading my blog, thank Him that you are reading my blog!) thank Him for the ups and downs situation i am experiencing! Thank You very much! ALL to HIM i OWE!

"Now my heart is troubled and what shall I say? 'Father, save me from this hour'?
No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour.
Father, glorify your name!"
John 12:27-28

in about 20 days, I will be sitting for my first ever exam in varsity. today i had this particular lecture whereby the lecturers are trying to clarify the common FAQs of taking exams in my varsity. well, some considered the two kind ladies are being very naggy. but i just felt thankful for these two kind ladies as what they said served as reminders to me. tho the things they mentioned are just general knowledge...or you will just response by saying "DUH!"..some lamented and saying the lecturers are wasting their time as the time could have been put to better use:muggin! Yet every error they mentioned repeats itself every year. why? humans tend to be boastful and full of pride(yes that is the evil lingering in us! evil may sounds a very heavy word but indeed it is an evil!)
there is another ocassion whereby one coursemate questioned me "have you ever skipped/pon a lecture before?" i replied No to her simple qn. the immediate response(or what most/all ppl will do too) is to give me a pair of very big eyes and goes "WAHHH." perhaps the image tt i portrayed now is a mugger. but i still felt there is an obligation for me to attend lectures(when i have no other activity that clashes with them) or the excuse activity i can think of is "sleeping activity?" lol! as for tutorials, i did pon once. i feel guilty coz i think i didn't show any respect for this particular tutor as i am always a late-comer for tutorial class. the most ridiculous thing i did was to appear 2 or 5 mins before the end of the class. I practically enter the classroom and sit on the chair for one minute and then signed off the attendance sheet and then be the first one to run off. ya thats the only tutorial class where i dun really know a single person. though the tutor don't really care about such minute matters, but i still feel bad tt i am not showing respect for a human being like me. coz i would really hope other ppl to respect me and yet i cannot demostrate tt simple gesture for this instance! 

friggin me! I shall avoid time-sucker applications for this time being. hope my friends will also work hard for their individual goals/exams! I really want to put in my best effort for my five modules..so as to glorify God's name and to do greater works for Him! and of course, i would desire to catch up with my dearest friends after exams! lets go out kay?  to shop/kbox/pig-eat a whole damn lot! /celeb christmas/birth of Christ Jesus! and Countdown to a new year!



pretty jumpshot at Sentosa/Cove! that place is really luxurious and a dream place to live in!