my two wisdom tooth at my lower jaw is giving me more pain and problem for the past two weeks and counting....guess i will have to fork out time to make a trip to NDC and book my surgery asap. and partially, i guess they trigger headaches and migraines for me. thus, it explained the high frequency of migraine attacks. my mum had her extraction when in her 40s...and had a week MC! lol. but seriously, the two wisdom tooth are growing very big now...and my gum kept on bleeding. maybe i shld hv heed my dentist advice after the last appt for the follow-up of my retainer condition. late is better than nothing. :)

yup. salad has gone back to work and is feeling happy! becoz salad will then be busy with printing more and more SAR forms and freezing in the office(i seriously wonder how environmental friendly can singapore offices be...when they are blasting all the aircon like crazy??!!). and the down side is i no longer see mich anymore in the office. so sad luh, coz i tot i could be there on her last day of work and take photo wif her manz! shucks. next time if i meet her on the street, i will pull her for a photoshot with me :)  will miss her and miss talking to her(talking abt non-office stuff) haha! but someone else in the office miss her even more! hmm, smthg funny happened on the first morning i returned to work. that morning, i met a colleague in the lift. then the auntie asked me "hey! aren't u on quarantine?"  and guess what? all the other officers in the lift quickly looked at me in suspicion and retreated a few steps back! omg damn hilarious luh! singaporeans are so alarmed! it is like as if i had a bomb on my body!

hmm, i am thinking through a lot of stuff ever since my grandfather's death. did i share with u guys? that after his death, the other ppl went to his room, and found his bible ...and his bible was bookmarked..with a rather relevant bible verse... ok i cant rmb which verse it was. but i felt happy that he believe in God that death is actually another beginning of eternal life! i think i am not scared of looking at dead people anymore. i think when we looked at them, we shld smile and be happy for them. (ok, i shant say too much becoz there is another big fear looming inside my heart now.)  time for family and friends who are dearest to ur heart.  time!   and suddenly a scene of my father pointing smthg at the church herald looms in my head. re-affirmation of faith. i hv dragged that matter for as long as 5 friggin years! omg...thats really long! and yet, up til this time, i still cannot be firm in saying tt i want to affirm my faith. wad is still holding me back is my lack of knowledge of bible aka God's words. i have total faith and dependance on HIM. but a simple qn like "what is ur fave bible verse?" or "can u say a few bible verses out?" just sort of shatter my heart..coz it is like i am loving a guy but i dunno what he likes or what are his habits.... haha get the analogy? and i hv to admit that i feel very inferior when i tell him i am born in a christian family! i noe i shldn't be feeling inferior in all ways...but i am shamed of myself. thats all i can say. perhaps i need a CG now(i never join a CG before on my own.... long long long time ago, my family joined a CG when i was like in kindergarten? lol..and all i rmb was i love singing christian songs with the other kids..and i love playing hide-n-seek with the kids while the adults are having their bible-sharing session. what fond memories in a CG!) haha. yup the problem of not having a CG has been in my mind for the past yr. and i am glad now tt my heart has open its door that i shall now join a CG to get myself a good start in my journey with knowing more abt God...not just loving him blindly! lala prays that God will provide me a decent CG for me. and i shall work hard to know more ppl and settle on a CG soon(hmm, i confirm gg to join a CG that is not from my BP church). 
A long term target set: re-affirm my faith within two to three years!  
btw, i failed my previous target...coz i thought i will reaffirm when i near 18 or 19.  but it seems the target is impossible to hit now. haiz. and i think my parents will be happy for me if one fine day, i share with them that i gg to re-affirm my faith. i think they gna like video the whole thing for me luh. just like how my sisters went for baptism when they r young. haha

i am really very excited abt my course in uni! like all the modules i hv to study in my particular course(tho i still dread a little abt econs! zomg! SOS!)  i will have to embrace the lecture style of learning since i am in the traditional uni. looking forward to meet ppl who are much mature in thinking and older than me. haha poly ppl sure have a lot of working experience and different set of thinking from the jc ppl....a best example: the ppl in my OG!  tho i still feel disconnected from their world when they start talking abt their own internship attachment and whatever polygraduation ceremony. til now, i hv yet to share with my og mate, how i landed in RE. even now, i still realise a lot of my friends still think i am gg to UMS...ahh i must go and informed them abt the change now. but i really never bluff  u guys! i was only offered my this current course like a few days before 1st june. how early can that be?!




oh yes, went for the genActs camp! it is a one of a kind camp which i really enjoyed it from the bottom of my heart. becoz i heart my OG and the freshies and all the ever-helpful and friendly seniors i meet. let me thx a few seniors which they really made an indirect impact in my decision making for uni courses. firstly, it will be shimin! she is a VERY helpful and understanding senior i met at the networking session. i spoke to her for around two hrs i think..and talk til mouth damn dry...she also clarify my thoughts abt computer science course. then later she also find another computing guy(nicholas) from another uni to help me compare and contrast!(haha and she is cute to say that she wld suggest me gg to that other uni to learn computing coz she is also listening to that guy's sharing.) yup and with her powerpoint slides on computer science..i finally decided that i am quite interested in that course..thus it explained why i put computing as one of my top choices for all three unis. thankyou!
next, will be jacq!  gosh, another wonderful and damn high senior! tho i only spoke to her for barely 5 mins at the end of the networkingsession...she make an effort to keep check on those who are applying to UMS! i am greatful for that long and naggy(it is REALLY v long!) on how to prepare for UMS interview(even tho she is in smubiz!) haha and thx gdness i pass the interview and i got the beloved offer! which i was so elated to share with her once i got the offer! but it was rather pity to tell her i m nt gg there anymore. her smses are helpful and a warm cup of milo to me during that period of lost and uncertain! haah but she cannot recognise me now liao...LOL coz i tried to say hi to her at the camp..but she gives me a strange look?  haha shimin still recognises me :)  
lastly i hv to say thx to joyce! well, din really talk much to her at the networking session since at that point of time i am still not sure if i am able to get into that course(yes, my Alvl is horrible that i cant meet the cut-off grades for last yr!) haiz. but Thank GoD! that i manage to get into that course via the inconventional way. she is also very helpful as to trying to feed me what willl i be gg thr and what stuff this course gg to offer to me :)  haha she also very very cute to show me those newsletters from the sch! :))) and see her photos in those newsletter! i feel very comfortable sharing and talking to her :)))) like as if i know her for a long time LOL.
thank GOD for the ever-helpful people i meet. oh yes, and FINALLY(opps) i hv to thx mich! if not for her random sharing of this grp, i will never get the chance to know so many nice seniors. mich is also a very nice senior cum small boss! haha hope she is doing fine in her new job at the FAR east side of singapore! LOL

i am aiming to be a bigger faith christian :)
pray for me! :)

OMG! i am back from my FOC! gosh..what a camp! i still cant get over the shock when the president of the MC released the news to my OG last midnite. like seriously! the whole of ystd, we are all speculating this and that. and who knows our "luck" so friggin good? but on the consoling side, i feel our OG is quite bonded due to the X1X1 and we got the "best og award"! haha. but after i saw the fotos on fb...i seriously miss out a lot of fun on the second day! argh! but nvm, i shall look 4ward to Oweek and meeting up with IRIS! 
the whole day spent at pgp ystd was horrible yet quite fun in an unique way... like how me and two other roomies chatted like real hell about our own individual taiwan trip...and we really talk damn long til we can talk abt our own history liao...and of course our own speculation abt X1X1 case...and we are happily indulge in hoping the ogl will say they will break the camp....but in the end we are left with much disappointment. haha!! waffles&spaghetti!(inside joke!)
and this is my first time that my mind did not run wild abt other stupid things.
thx goodness. i hope this is a good sign! ^^

so i will spend the next few days shagging all the way hurhur...

ahhh i seriously miss those taiwan snacks now! esp ystd when my roomies and i were like rah rah over all the food we have eaten in tw. LOL


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gosh, kylieM rawks! i watched "The Kylie Show" on the plane to tw...okay i must admit that she can be friggin bitchy in the catfight with her sista but it was v hilarious(thats explain my laughters on the plane!) like her new Boombox album...esp the remix for 2hearts  XD  anw, did i mention that CAirline is quite cool? that they hv so many albums(cheena,canton,jap,korean,eng) for us to listen to! mite choose to sit on CA if i go tw again...

sigh, the way society works really disgust me. i mean there is no need to always have such an uproar abt who is to be blame for XXXX.  all those comments just reveal one thing: singaporeans speak without much thinking to be done! well, but seriously some of their comments are friggin hilarious(coz obviously what they said was totally crap!)   will it go into the mitigation stage? i shall wait a little longer... since so many things can happened within such a small period of time.

meanwhile, i shall do more reflection. and i will go HIGH after Wednesday!

Whoosh! shall blog before i leave for my long waited vacation. so many things happened immediately after the previous blog entry! that particular one LINE which i hope that will appear, Indeed it did appear! and it made my whole brain go haywire as i didn't really think i deserved it and how the whole interview upset and pissed me off(if u did read my earlier post on it). until now, i think i hv yet to inform my U/MS friends tt i am not gg there anymore. anw, i still must thank U/MS a whole whole lot! as their offer gives me some form of hope that allow me to persevere for as long as one and a half month(i got their offer v early). I seriously love my interview(i got a nice bunch of interview grp peeps!) and yup it was my ultimate first choice. By GOD's grace, I finally settled on my ultimate second choice! and i am v elated abt the whole thought of it(as given by my ugly grades, i wasn't suppose to get into anywhere gd.) Thank you LORD for everything! for my Alvl grades(ouch)! for the three offers! and for the very last offer! :))))) 
Life is full surprises and pranks...isn't it?

i need to point out smthg. that why christians are so narrow-minded?! and it seems most of my christians friends and new christians i met, are liddat(i m not saying i am not narrow-minded)! that one comment that comes out from your mouth says a whole lot although u guys do not really mean it, but those words are just simply what ur heart thinks. yup. Whats so great abt joining a grp where ppl always go RAH-RAH-RAH-RAH and singing some songs which always repeat itself(like so many times?) and u guys kept on jumping and hands up so long and tada AMEN! sigh. pls respect those groups which still prefer those solemn(ok, it is not solemn but MEANINGFUL) hymn singing.  okok, i need to clarify that i am not against those rah rah type of worship. just hope u guys dun always give that "look" when someone said they're from methodist/ B-P ... haha and frankly, i do enjoy rah-rah worship a lot(i am still a hot-blooded youth, not auntie)! but B-P style of worship always send a breathing spell to my troubled soul. shall continue church-hopping... LOL
may God give me a sense of direction and stay-rooted to a church(til now, it is still unknown). amen

"People grow old by deserting their ideals."
haha i am so gonna hold on to my ideals and seek to explore out of singapore and know more people!
camps are coming up soon! looking forward to each of them as i continue to see how many crazy(and yet sane and nice) ppl out there!
and yup hope my parents and grandsenior will hv a safe EU-rope trip! *envies* coz i wanna go to H&M!

the sweet escape~

Don't tell God how big your problems are, tell your problems how big your God is!

argh, my two sisters very the NOISYYY like as if they are newborn crying babies! SHUT UP! i need to mediate and Uzap! LOL

i am very happy for my best friend.